Apr. 12th, 2017


Apr. 12th, 2017 09:44 am
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I feel like I should be singing Pulp and just add some yeah, yeah, yeah's. I been feeling a bit frustrated and fed up recently about the whole babies thing. My wife has been going on about me looking into someone to be the mother of my child. Adoption or surrogates. It's hard because I don't really want to spend up to like £15'000 to some lady who I don't really know. It all seems rather cold and clinical, I mean it's a really messed up situation. Apart of me would prefer to have an affair or sex with random women and at least that way the child would have 2 clear parents.
Even my mother was giving me grief over it the other day, as I told her what do you want me to do? I don't have the right genitals! I don't have a womb! It's like it's as straight forward as me getting pregnant, if I could I would. She was on about I'm getting old and she doesn't want me to miss out and I'd be a wonderful father.
This is painful, I had to explain to her and my wife that the cancer treatment and my wife's health are at the moment my top priority and that as much as I'd like to have babies I can't think about it right now.
It seems like my brother and he's wife are going to have a 2nd baby and my brother in law and his wife have just had a baby.
Plus I said to my mum, my wife is convinced she hasn't got long to live so so there is a baby I will have to deal with her dying and me being a single parent of a young baby.

The whole thing is messed up and just depressing


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